recent thoughts on psychiatric medication
Lots of mental health consumer/survivors dialog on dealing with personal "madness", or psychiactrically defined mental illness. The focus is on alternative ways of perceiving madness.
On the site forum there's an interesting thread on medications.
Icarus Project - medications
Today I made a post to the Icarus Project website.
Thought I'd share my post here.
I'm someone who is a survivor of being an inmate in a state hosptal. I spent six months at Marlboro State Hospital in New Jersey almost 40 years ago, 1969-70. I was dosed heavy with the old anti-psychotics like Thorazine and Stellazine.
I was diagnosed as schizophrenic and told I would have to take these medications for the rest of my life. Two weeks out of the state hospital I stopped taking the medications entirely. The side effects to me were unacceptable. Mostly the mind-numbing quality comes to mind.
Today I'm a psychiatric survivor. I've worked with the system for many years. I worked in several institutions in Pennsylvania, including three state hospitals. I've seen much medication abuse like practices of "pouring heavy", meaning staff deciding to give extra medication, beyond doctor's order. It seems obvious to me that many times the medications were given as a means of control rather than therapy.
What works for my ongoing recovery from mental distress is spiritual practice. I was very lucky to connect with meditation and other spiritual practices about a year and a half after leaving the state hospital. I've kept up the spiritual practices since and today they've become great personal tools, treasures really.
Spirituality is many things to many people. I think of spirituality as "connection and meaning", whatever that is for the individual. Can be a religious practice but can be taking a walk in the park, or observing one's own mind.
I've personally come to terms with enough of the ground of my own mind to be able to deal with various mindstates, some personally difficult or challenging. Some of these very mindstates were the basis of my "schizophrenia". At the time of my schizophrenic experience, I didn't have the tools or the ability to handle the tools that I do now. Some of the non-ordinary mindstates I experienced during schizophrenia have never gone away really. Actually I've learned ways to come to terms with and benefit from the non-ordinary perceptions.
I'm just a human being really, like everyone else. Nobody really great. I do think however we all have great potential. In my opinion, psychology/psychiatry needs to focus more on human potential rather than fixing the breakdowns. What is "normal", what is "sane"? I was never attracted to the definitions of sanity implicit in the DSM pscyhiatric diagnostic manual.
What I'm saying is that mental illness can be dealt with in many ways other than the prevailing psychiatric model(s). I know that working with my own mind for me has brought me great benefit. I'm happier than I ever have been in my life. Sure, I still have lots of problems, but I've learned methods to work with my own mindstates.
I sincerely wish that many find the ways to work with their own minds in positive, beneficial ways.
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